nooligan x hidedemons: journal entry (3)

journal

May 19

nooligan x hidedemons: journal (3)

i’ve always had this thing where i felt i can do it all myself -i don’t need anyone or anything, i can go it alone.

i never asked for help, nor do i need it -i’ll figure it out. the problem is that you are missing something, its not as good when you go it alone - it might get done but it could’ve been better, it could’ve been easier.

i’ve had to learn this the hard way, there is something in working for others -with others that creates something you couldn’t do alone. its magic, you could have never seen or experienced without that collaboration.

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so, when i started this adventure of wanting to become a “comic artist” -i was part of a group of artists that went to conventions together, shared a small table and tried to promote our work. i wasn’t any good to be honest was pretty much ignored by most passing by -so i spent most the time just messing around.

years pass and i’m still at it -most of those artists i used to run with all went their own way. i still kept at it, it was a struggle to keep it up when your trying to be something you ain’t. meaning, at the time i really wanted to get picked up by one of the “big two” -you go down that path of trying to draw like them, be that standard -ya know, every comic man style just to be noticed. that was the struggle-

I was no good at being like them, i was awful at trying to be them and it showed. as people i knew around me got picked up or hired for gigs - i grew a bit of a chip and went down a path of just trying new things -things i knew they would never accept or care about.

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the interesting thing was, i felt like it was “lone wolf” path and to the industry it pretty much was -but who was there with me during that time was all of you-

when the industry didn’t want me or see me -all of you did -you all had my back and give me courage to continue down the path -the path that at times felt lonely & difficult.

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so to all of you that supports me and shares my work - i wouldn’t be me without any of you.

i will continue to work for you all and give you the best i am.

together we are too good a-ship to sink.

stay lucky, stay safe.